Comfort Zone?

I feel like I gave up one of the constants in my life, a big comfort zone for me. I have a deep passion for summer camp and the way God works though kids lives there and this summer I have turned down the opportunity to work at three different camps. It hurt so bad, but I made a deal with God saying that if I didn't get hired at one place then it was my sign that I wasn't supposed to work at camp. Well you can already see how that phone call went.

I received a phone call on Thursday that asked me if I would be willing to consider the job of being one of the main spiritual leaders on campus at Union next year. It terrified me, but the more I talked to people about it, the more I prayed about it the more I felt that maybe it was something I could handle. Even the talk that the week of prayer pastor had made me believe that that is what God had in store for me. The next afternoon I received a text saying that they had selected the person that was "running against me". I hadn't even had 24 hours to mill it over and it was taken from me. I was excited to do something way out of my comfort zone and find a new way to connect with my classmates.

Moving to California, away from my family and friends wasn't something I had in mind that I would ever be doing. But after turning down God's call once, I couldn't let it happen twice. I am now almost done with my school year in California, I can't believe I was so terrified to leave my comfort zone and move here. God has been more that God in every way.

The reason I write this is because after that phone call and after turning down summer camp I was devastated. I felt more lost then I had been in a long time. I was and still am so confused about what God is doing in my life this summer and next school year. I know I shouldn't worry about tomorrow, but it's my natural human state.
Well I brought this up to a friend and she told me that is God pulling me out of my comfort zone. When I heard this I burned with anger. I felt that it was a cop out answer, even though I knew that that is what she felt in her heart was going on. I don't know if I believe that. I know that the position at Union would have been nowhere near in my comfort zone. I like to think that there is so much more behind it then just God testing me and pulling me out of my comfort zone, but that always seems to be the answer I receive. Maybe I am just a little frustrated and don't understand God right now.