Life After Task Forcing is HARD!

No one said life after task forcing would be this hard.

I have a constant ache in my heart because I miss my girls, teaching, coaching, "parenting", serving, and connecting. I feel out of place, selfish, alone, matured, unsettled and misunderstood.

I have experienced things that no one else can fully understand. I have lived a year in ministry and built relationships to the point of loving deeply but had to leave it all behind. School is about me and what I want to do, task forcing was about others and how I could serve them.

So where does this leave me now? What am I going to do with the knowledge I have gained? I have always been a fan of the saying, "if you don't like something, change it." Well, that's what I am working on. How can I change this? How can I find the place where I feel like I am constantly serving others again while balancing the craziness of school, family, and friends?

I am not sure of the answer to this, but I know that God will provide a way. He takes care of His children, He never fails.
Isaiah 42:16 holds a promise that I cling to more now then ever, "I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them." This is the unfamiliar path, this is the darkness, this is the rough place and my One True Love will not forsake me.

Sorry!

So I just got my computer back after over a month of not having it. Now I can blog again! :) Sorry for not blogging for SO long!