My last few months of task forcing were heart wrenching. Not only was I dealing with home sickness and the thought of having to tell my newly adopted 12 daughters good bye, but also tragedies.
During our alumni basketball game, one of our alumni died on the court during the game. Then I was dealing with a girl in my dorm who was sick only to find out that she had cancer. So I left task forcing empty and with a hole in my heart. (Don't get me wrong, task forcing was an AMAZING experience that grew me in ways that I never thought possible and I wouldn't trade for ANYTHING)
Next stop, Camp MiVoden. Another new place to meet new people and just try to survive. I must admit the first few weeks were a disaster for me. I struggled feeling like I was making friends and put forth the least amount of effort I have ever at camp because I was so empty. God is good and I made it through another summer and was used by God to bring kids closer to Him this summer.
Now... wow... I am back at Union. The place where I felt home and where I felt I belonged. And don't get me wrong, I still feel that, but this is not the same school I once attended. So many new faces. I am LOVING being back in school and meeting new people. I am making the transition and learning that different, no matter how many different things I have ran into through the past year, is good. Now I feel my struggle is my passion for ministry. I know it's there, I just can't seem to find it. It makes me frustrated and angry and being in Campus Ministering its an important aspect to have. I know it's in me, just where is it hiding? Suggestions for new ministries would be wonderful! I am looking for new and exciting things, especially in the outreach aspect. Brain storm with me friends.
I miss my Newbury Park family, but I am home and have an even clearer picture of what God wants to do with my life and I am so thankful for that. So bring on the newness and changes of life because I have been made stronger and am ready to take life head on with God by myside.
